Today I am starting this blog. I have come here because I am going thru a lot of stuff right now. The most pressing being a break up with my boyfriend for the past four years. I am hoping that I can use this as a sounding board just to get all my feelings out. I do not mind who reads this, however I am not sure you will find it intersting and may even find it a bit depressing. I am doing this for me and that is what it is all about, because if I keep all this in my head any longer I will explode. I am not here to "bash" anyone, it will probably seem that way to begin with as I am very angry and that will be apparent. I am just here to release what I need to release to get over this, and if by chance someone reads it and it helps them too then that will be a bonus.
We met four years ago this September. We met in a bar...yeah I know. But anyway, come to find out we went to school together and actually worked together at one point but never talked to each other we were both married. At the time we met, Matt had been divorced for about five years, my divorce was not yet final. He gave me his number on that Friday night and I did not call him until Sunday. He came to visit me on Tuesday of that week. When he got ready to leave he ask me if he could kiss me and my life has never been the same since. I believe that one of the reasons why I am so scared to begin with is that I am so afraid that no one will ever be able to make me feel that way again. I can not put into words how it was, but I fell in love the minute his lips touched mine........
